Friday, August 29, 2008


How weird is that?! My parents dropped me off this morning after driving fourteen hours to this city. I'm living in the Commodore dorm, which used to be an old hotel, but has been converted into living space. It is PRETTY neat. I have a minifridge which is probably the thing I am most excited about.

As well, my roommate is not here yet, so the anxiety as to who she is has not ended. I DO know however that her name is Yvonne. But that's about it. I've only met a few people today...I'm just really tired and haven't been feeling super good so my normally obnoxious extroverted personality hasn't picked up yet. I did however walk around town for a couple hours with a kid I met on facebook a while back named Paul...he's pretty cool. I'm actually meeting him for dinner in a few, which should be fun.

So I'm all moved in, and this whole thing is CRAZY. I can't believe I am here. It...hasn't quite set in yet? I was freaking out the most when I left Salt Lake and then again when my parents left me...but I've put up some things which remind me of home and my family and friends, so that's good and will keep me from being homesick. As well, thank goodness for Skype and MSN and AIM to keep me in contact with all my friends and family. Annnnd I've been texting all my friends like mad on my new iPhone, which is really neat and that I do recommend getting one if you have the means to.

This is so unreal that I'm actually here.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

of all the things i'll miss family the most

Haha, I put this (well, a slightly different and more quickly done sketch) on the back of Natalie's birthday card.

Why I will miss my family once in San Francisco is ALSO the same reason men will probably run for the hills once they get to know me a little better.


But honestly, one of the things that give me the most anxiety about leaving would have to be about missing my family. I'm going to miss my mom going off on a completely unrelated tangent about Kryon and the forces of the Universe and ancient advanced civilizations during normal conversation, my dad checking to see how sick/hurt I really am and deducing finally, "I've seen worse", laughing for hours with Natalie about "fart sniggle" or playing our favorite guessing games, watching all five of my nephews, especially Felix and Carter getting older, going to church with Heather and Jared whenever I'm tired of going without my entire family, enduring Ashlie's rants about how I shouldn't drink milk anymore ("Pustules! Pustuuuuuleeeeesssssss..."), and wondering what the heck the crap is that Allison has been listening to lately.

I'm also going to miss my animals rather a lot. I'm going to miss snuggling up to Moki at night, tackleing Aurora, and just petting Denali, since she's usually just so stiff now as she's getting older.

Ah, but who am I kidding. I'm going to miss my bed the most.

Monday, August 18, 2008


Another request by my friend Cellie. She's supposed to be doing thriller with a bunch of zombies behind her....but I got lazy and I suppose I'll finish it sometime later.

Elliot left today. I actually got really...really sad. I'm going to be a bit of a wreck when I leave, I'm sure. I didn't even really get to say goodbye to him since his parents wouldn't let him go out last night and I worked this morning. I was just kind of sitting there at the park and it dawned on me and I almost cried. And if you know me well, you know that I either don't cry at all--or I only cry when something really shakes me or something to that extent, and I only feel comfortable crying when I'm with family or by myself. I don't know why, but whatever.

Anyway, last night I went out to dinner with Anna, and then met up with Tucker later to hang out, which was really fun. I haven't hung out with just those two in ages, and I had kind of forgotten what that was like. We took a ton of pictures and were all just laughing so hard, mostly because Tucker looked like a creeper in all of them, except this one where he looks decent--slightly spacey, but decent.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

sorry dudes.

Sorry those of you who read my blog, my entries as of late have been only about me being anxious and excited and slightly scared about school: and here's another one.

Everyone is leaving--I think this will be the hardest for me, this whole part of growing up and moving out. Jordan leaves for Boston in the morning, Elliot leaves on Monday, Tucker on Wednesday, and many others all throughout this whole week.

Makes me really sad just thinking about it. For as long as I have known these people they've ALWAYS been there for me, whether or not we're as close as we used to be. And now physical distance is separating all of us. My core group of friends are ALL going to different schools across the country, save Emilie, Rachel, Michael, and Harrison who are at the U. Never before this have I felt the reality of this? I mean, I've had friends and will have friends who leave on their missions for two years...but that's just one at a time, it seems. Now it's all of them, and all so far away. I know I'll make friends at AAU, but I don't think they'll be the same type of friends. I might be proven wrong, but I won't have an Anna to laugh with for almost an hour over "hurr i'm a durr", or Elliot to go out and buy stupid yet awesome things like his gigantic pogo stick, Tucker to relate something totally random to computers or physics, Mary to tell me about her latest story idea, etc..

I have ridiculously intelligent friends. Friends who were the state CHESS champion, for goodness sake, friends who get into elite schools with scholarships, friends who if you give a problem to them, they'll find a way to fix it in a way which I would've never thought of. It kind of stuns me, in a way. I guess I am equally talented in a different sense in that I can hold a pencil or a paintbrush fairly well, but I really think I am going to miss the friends who aren't as right brained as myself and as suredly as some of my future classmates will be. I can't wait to see who my friends become, hopefully I'll be able to brag about them more than I already do--because I really am so proud of them, and how hard they have all worked to get to where they want to be.

It kind of made me worried when I spoke to my friend Connor who attended AAU for an acting major, but decided to leave because he wanted a more well rounded education and wasn't getting any better of an education in his chosen field than he would get anywhere else. He also told me that a lot of the classes will seem a bit of a joke at first, but the farther you get in and the more kids realize they either want to be there or they do not, it becomes more enjoyable. But while I am so excited for these classes where honestly all I am learning about is art and illustration and animation and perspective and all sorts of things, I really wish I could just buckle down and take a biology class, or take French seriously or something to that end, even a calculus class (I may not be great at math but I am fascinated by it). But honestly, most of my generals have been waived by my AP test scores and in that sense I'm not going to have much of a challenge, there, I guess I could take a couple classes at the U during the summer, one of those six week programs or whatever, take something else that I am interested in, as well.

Well, we'll see. Countdown of 13 days continues.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

bad sleeping habits

Haha, I need to start sleeping better.

But anyway, here are some pictures from the most recent Bear Lake trip. I invited one of my best friends, Rachel, up with me, and it was kind of ridiculous how much fun it was. We rented a boat and a jetski, as well as watched the Olympics, celebrated Heber's 7th birthday, and layed out on the beach. About half of my family was reading Breaking Dawn while up there, and I also got to see some cousins who have been off around the world for the last several months, so that was neat. I seriously didn't want to leave. I could go for a raspberry shake right about now, I think..

Monday, August 11, 2008

oh look.

New layout? got some help from a template that I found somewhere. I like it enough, I guess.


You know, little bulbasaurs everywhere really make this layout much better than it was before.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

new art..

This is what I do in my spare time. Draw really random things in Photoshop. The bottom one is supposed to be my friend Jordan, a request. Yeppp.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

August already?

You Are One Of The Few Outsiders Who Really Understands Us - Fanfarlo

This blows my mind that it's already the beginning of August. This summer has been amazing already, and I'm not quite ready for it to be over. I've been to Newport Beach on my senior trip with some of my best friends--where we sat on the beach and played in the waves all day, went to Disneyland, walked to Albertson's rather a lot to get our vanilla bean frappuccino fix, danced on our wall, and snuggled in close quarters. I went to Bear Lake with my family where we hung out at the beach, layed out, played games, read, and took pictures pretending to be animals. And finally to Big Sky, Montana and Yellowstone National Park to hike to geysers and waterfalls, to fish, swim in the boiling river, play games, escape the termites, and look for wildlife. It kind of amazes me that already my last summer where I officially live at home is almost over. Part of me is incredibly excited to get out there--to be in San Francisco and to be creating art and learning about the stuff I truly care about. But the other part of me doesn't want to leave quite yet. I'm going to miss so much of my family's day to day life. It makes me really sad that since I'll be gone for such long periods of time, my two youngest nephews Carter and Felix probably won't recognize me anymore. I'll be really sad to be away from my best friends as they head all over the country to go to school. Anna's at the University of Oregon, Elliot at Utah State, Mary at Westminster, Rachel, Danny, Clara, and Anna Tingey at the University of Utah, Peter at the University of Chicago, Kevin at Seattle University, Jill at Puget Sound, Lindsay at Boston University, Jordan still at Brandeis, Tucker at Colorado State, Emily at BYU...It's going to be a crazy separation. I'm going to miss everyone so much. However, I am taking into account the fact I'll make plenty new friends--but they'll be a bit different. Hopefully not ALL of AAU's students are moody artists, fashion divas, weird drama nerds, or gay guys (I mean honestly...I want to date some guys..hahah). I guess we'll see. Maybe I could give ol' Scrappy a chance on the dating scene (couple of years ago my sister spotted a nude hobo sitting around on the streets of San Francsico--and dubbed him Scrappy).

Ashlie got back from Ecuador on the first, was in town for 20 hours, and was back on a plane to Mexico with Peter's family for their annual vacation. But while she was here we ate a ton of sushi, swam in the pool, and for dinner went to Costa Vida with everyone. There was this creepy guy in a chef's had with this huge scraggly beard and ugly patterned scrub pants, who was making balloon animals at the restaurant. It was rather strange--he would just kind of stand by our table and watch us or else stand reclusively in the corner. WEIRD.

So in today's news, I went up to Albian Basin with the Bernhisel side of the family to eat some breakfast and spread another part of my grandmother's ashes. She was an amazing skier and loved it up there, as well as always thinking the area beautiful in the summer, which it is. So that was really neat. After returning down to the valley, I had a family reunion with the Carling side of the family down at Liberty Park. It was fun seeing most of the cousins on that side, as well as meeting people I had never seen before.

Oh so this whole past week I've had strep throat...or some other kind of virus, not really sure. I'm on antibiotics so that took care of it for the most part, which is nice. But I still feel kind of gross. This is not relevant to anything.

I don't work for the rest of the week which is really nice, and then on Thursday I'm off to Bear Lake again with most of the Bernhisel family. I'm really excited. I'm also inviting my friend Rachel up--so that should also be super fun.

I need to charge my camera and upload my photos. I'm kind of a lazy person in this sense as I haven't done it in a couple weeks.