Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Sunday, December 14, 2008

of finals, christmas, and whales

........I needed a break from studying/drawing other things.

Anyway, besides drawing whales, I have been really sick for about a month and a half--which is not the best thing in the world. All I want to do is sit in bed all day and sleep, but alas, I usually make myself get up and go about my day as usual as unappealing it might be.

Final projects are all due this next week...Yikes. I'm getting really nervous about them. Hopefully I'll do well! I have two on Monday, one on Tuesday, and another on Friday--and then I'm DONE! I fly home to Salt Lake Saturday afternoon--and I am getting so excited. I'm hearing there is a ton of snow on the ground, so I plan to fling myself upon it the first chance I get. We've only been having some rain recently...and lots of fog. Doesn't quiiiite feel like Christmas for me yet, though I am sure that will change right when I get home.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

new art and pictures

Hey everyone! I figure it's time for a real update again.

Ahhhhhh! Finals are coming up, and I'm stressing out that I'm not going to do well and all that jazz. I'm sure all will be well, though. I can do this! I just need to be really committed the next couple of weeks.

I come home on the 20th...so I'm really looking forward to that. I miss everyone at home, my friends, my family, my pets, my bed, my house, a KITCHEN, and the joy of blowing my nose and not having it be black/gray with pollution and smoke.

Thanksgiving was great, I spent it at my friend Carina's house (the girl in the picture on the left) in Palo Alto. We had some adventures in Half-Moon Bay and the area around there, which was great for me, since it's one of my favorite places in the Bay Area. Shame it was slightly marred by the appearance of an old man with dred locks in a thin white robe jumping like a dog in the waves....there was nothing under the robe so it didn't leave much to the imagination. Haha! Oh well. It was really nice to have a little vacation...even though the weekend before that I had the chance to go down to Carmel with my parents to visit with our friends Mike and Tracy at their house. It's been hard getting back into the swing of things, but eh, I'll manage.

So I was bored today after running a bunch of errands, and drew that picture in a few hours with some charcoal and on some craft paper. The imagery is a little strange, I know, but it goes with a song that I've had stuck in my head for months, called "The Crane Wife" by the Decemberists. I actually have it here on my blog, so if you want to listen to it, just scroll to it on my music player to the left, it should be there. But basically it's about a Japanese folk-tale where a man rescues a crane and fixes it's injured wing, and releases it. Later, a woman comes to the man's door, and they fall in love and get married. To make money the woman weaves beautiful fabric, but she makes the man promise that he must never watch her weave. He becomes greedy and wishes to see how she does it, and upon spying on her, the man watches the woman turn back into the crane and fly away. It's a sad story/song, but I love it just the same. So basically, my picture started out as a doodle and turned into this which is what was on my mind so yeah. I ramble.

Happy December!


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Just some awesome dances me and a couple friends put together. You know, nothing too big.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

hanging in there

Hey everyone! I know you'll all be excited about this news: I have some more animations to show you! They're pretty iffy-quality animation in the fact I was learning how to do both a lip sync and a quadruped walk cycle, which I had never done before. The lip sync is alright, but eh. And the walk cycle I figured out more as I was progressing it forward, so the beginning struggles a bit. haha.

But yeah! That's the puppet I'm using for my final project in my experimental animation. Only for the final he'll have a monocle, top hat, and bowtie.

I figure there ought to be some more pictures of what I have been up to lately: I've been trying to remember to bring my camera everywhere! But I'm doing well, I'm really excited to see my parents who are coming to visit tomorrow (Thursday)! Seriously I can't wait to mooch of of them and take me to all the fun places I can't afford to go to otherwise! haha.

I saw the new James Bond movie: and I liked it--just not as a Bond movie. I wanted more gadgets, cars, and things that which make a Bond movie. It was pretty good though: it's worth checking out for sure. I love Daniel Craig so much, haha! He's reason enough to see it. But I saw it with my friends Carina, Jenni, and Jenni's friend from high school Dierdra. It was a really fun night, except for that I've been really sick lately and felt miserable after the movie. Also of course I ruin the picture with my face since Jenni took so many pictures which all were bad of Dierdra and Carina so I didn't smile in this one, and of course it's the one where both look cute and I look ...yeah. Not cute.

I also have a bad quality picture of my recent project that I did in my Analysis of Form class: another B! Which is really good, considering I did it pretty much the day before. I didn't sleep much that night, and still have the charcoal embedded in my nose and lungs. Neverrrrr again, it was awful.

I've found this fabulous Mexican restaurant that I want to eat at pretty much every moment. And it's cheap which is the best part. I got this huge Barbacoa/Chipotle sized burrito there for about $4.50. Awesome! When you all come to visit me, we're all going there in turn. I'm hoping I get to go there tomorrow when my parents get in....hahaha. I think all I think about is food because of the awful food here in my meal plan. Sometime's you'll be surprised and will get something really great, like when they have make your own burritos or ravioli or something simple: other times they go all out and it looks like puke and you don't want to eat another quesadilla for the rest of your life and it's a problem since you're poorer than that wino on the corner.

You see my predicament.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


I know you are all dying to see what I do in my spare time...along with all of my homework. It's kind of understandable. I live an exciting life in San Francisco, after all!

Well, sadly I've found I am incredibly broke with this whole lack of a real job thing--I'm doing that ChaCha thing on the side but it's not great money. So here are some photo examples of what I like to do and that are completely free. (well, maybe not completely at times)

1.) Have awkward Skype chats with Anna and Elliot!
2.) ...draw myself?
3.) Do laundry with Jenni!
4.) Go get shakes at Lori's diner....not so much with those creeper eyes but shakes make everything better! (the eyes are a result of being sick and not enough sleep because of it)...yikes!
5.) Peruse the stores and never buy anything due to the lack of money
6.) Help Carina with her photo storyboarding class. The last picture is of me and Jenni duking it out with laser guns and lightsabers, but don't worry, I get myself out of that sticky situation eventually.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


I'm really proud to say that I voted in this election. It's perhaps one of the most important elections in our nation's history, a huge landmark. Countries across the world see this election and the impact it will have on history forever, and we all wait to see what the outcome is.

As many of you know, I'm a liberal Mormon, and I don't find it impossible to be both. While my religion is important to me, I'm not going to let my religious beliefs get in the way of my political ones, or let my political beliefs get in the way of my religious ones. I believe that I can have both.

I'm proud to say that I voted for Barack Obama, however I'm even more proud to be a part of history, regardless of who wins.

I hope you all went out to vote, regardless of who you voted for!


We just made history!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Halloween 2008!

Happy Halloween to everyone! I hope you all had a great weekend, I certainly enjoyed the fact Halloween was on a weekend this year.

My first Halloween here in San Francisco was so much fun. It was absolutely crazy (don't worry--not too crazy). I went as Sherlock Holmes, though sadly my costume didn't work quite as well as I had hoped since it was really windy and my hat kept blowing off. So there's only one picture of me with it on, but I guess that's alright.

Our night consisted of going down to Chipotle and getting a free burrito! The deal was that if you dressed up like a burrito (i.e., wearing a piece of tin foil) you would get a free one. So myself, Chelsea, Claire, Carina, and Jenni all went down to claim our free burrito: it happened to be my second one for the day, but that's alright because we all know I could eat there or Barbacoa every single day. We also met up with some of Carina's friends from Palo Alto, and went to a free event over at AT&T stadium. That was fun, though there were lots of crazies about: including my best friend the hobo with a beaver tail for hair, as well as a man dressed as a giant phallus. Nice.

This weekend I went down to Palo Alto to visit my friend Carina's home: that was really fun. It was so nice to have a mom take care of me and give me a home cooked meal! That's where I'll be going for Thanksgiving, so I'm really looking forward to that.

Today I also got to see some familiar faces: My friends Ty and Emily from high school were in the city: Ty goes to another art school here in the area, and Emily goes to the U and came to visit for Halloween, so it was really fun to see them. I'm serious guys, if you are in the area, give me a call and I would LOVE to meet up.

That's all for me!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Pixelation Animation

Here it is! Last Saturday my friends AJ, Alex, Andrea, Ben and I all headed north to Crissy Field so that we could shoot this animation--which took about six hours of taking each picture frame by frame. Pixelation refers to the animation of the human body in order to create effects that just aren't possible with live action.

A note about the video: there is sound, so if you'd like to hear it, turn my background music off by going to the left of this page and scrolling down, clicking pause on the little green circle music player things that I have.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

neat updates

SO my day was fantastic today. I got to go up north and see Crissy Field in order to shoot our latest animation project--human pixelation, which means you're basically animating the human body frame by frame. It's going to be amazing, and I can't wait to show it to you guys--it's currently being edited by some of the guys in my group, so it'll be fantastic. I was working with an incredible group who all love what they are doing, and it was a really fun experience, getting to act as well as direct and contribute ideas.

It was absolutely beautiful today--despite it being freezing cold and windy the whole time. The fog kept coming in and out, so I was lucky enough to get the above picture when the lighting was just right.

OH and I got a B on my drapery assignment! This is very good, and I'm really proud of it. The grade I'm hoping for in our next project is an A- or so---part of our grade is actually improving our work from each assignment, and I'm totally prepared to work on this assignment for MUCH longer this time in order to get the grade that I would like.

I am so excited for Halloween! I don't exactly KNOW what I am doing for Halloween, but I've heard some mentions of things going on, so we'll see how it turns out. But I'm being a girl Sherlock Holmes--and my costume is fabulous. My favorite part is the vintage tweed deerstalker cap that I bought on eBay. Can't wait to show it off.

Anyway, short update on school--and I guess I'm off to bed: I've seriously been running around all day, and am dead tired. Love you all!

Friday, October 17, 2008

actual post---not videos!

For those of you wondering what I am doing in some of my other classes BESIDES my experimental animation class--here's my first completed homework assignment I had to do for my Analysis of Form class. The kind of crappy quality is because I took it with my phone--since I was lazy and didn't want to hook my digital camera up to my computer.

Anyway, done in charcoal--it's about 18x24 inches.

This was our midterm project---so let's hope I get a good grade on it! It took forever, and I'm happy with how it looks, all in all.

I'm continuing to love living here in the city--besides the fact I have no time for a job--and thus, no money. I have NO disposable income as of right now, which is not a fun experience at all. I've spent a good $100 on just getting film developed, another couple hundred on books and other supplies, and couple that with living in a place where every store you could IMAGINE is right down the street--it becomes a little hard to save money. Not to mention my frequent cravings for burritos at Chipotle.

So I'm missing my family greatly, especially when I was my youngest nephew Felix's photos from a professional photographer. I just wanted to hold him and cuddle him all day long.

SO family and friends who read this, come visit.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

some stupid videos you should enjoy

I love wasting my time looking at dumb and hilarious videos on Youtube--It's a favorite activity of mine! Here are some of my recent favorites.

My best friend Anna showed me this a couple days ago--I love this song, though I might just love this version more.

Hahaha this made me laugh so hard. I love lolcats.

My friend Parker told me that he had watched Troll 2 with some of his friends, and as I had never heard of it, he showed me a montage of the film. It was awful, but this scene is so bad---it's good? Worst line delivery of all time, though.

I could watch this over and over and over and over. It makes me laugh harder each time I watch it, actually.

Hahahaha this one kills me.

That's enough for now--as for updates in my life:

School is going well! I'm still super busy--not much has changed there. I make sure I still have lots of time for dumb Youtube videos, though! I have set up my schedule for next semester and oh man--I'm going to be even more busy, with 15 credit hours rather than just 12, like I have now. I'll be fine, though. I am able to keep myself sane after long days of class by watching Heroes on Mondays, and Project Runway on Wednesdays. Carina, Chelsea, and I are also watching the original Star Wars trilogy because Chelsea has never seen them before. I guess she has lived on an island her whole life, but still--never seeing Star Wars?!

Oh, and a couple people have been wondering my address while here--if you'd like to know it, send me an email at sjbernhisel@gmail.com and I'd love to give it to you. I like getting mail. (:

Alright, I'm off to work on some of my homework. About time.

Monday, October 6, 2008

hurrrr it is. No racial innuendos for those of you worried.

My completed paper cut out animation.

It gets kind of choppy at the end but I'm okay with that!

I love school.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

because I love staying up late

Other character in my Rapunzel animation: I need to print and build him, and then I can start animating. Excitinggggggg.

It's late.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

More "homework".

This is my homework for my stop animation class: design a paper cut out character for a 30 second animation--mine is a rendition of Rapunzel. Each of the little joints is a separate piece of paper stuck together: or will be eventually. I drew all of the pieces to fit together on photoshop, and this is them all put together. The actual sheet just looks like a ton of random things on a page. And the page for the expressions is just full of faces with blinking eyes and moving eyes and such things. And I have another page just for the huge masses of hair she has.

The other character I have is a knight, but I haven't started on him yet---that'll probably be started tomorrow.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


My dog passed away today. I've missed her so much this last month--and haven't really felt homesick until now. She's been my best friend since I was 5, and I kind of don't know what it will be like going home without her bright blue eyes being there to welcome me.

She's been with me since kindergarten to 12th grade--and once I got a little bigger, she was always by my side, always there when I was upset, and even a couple of years ago when I had a really bad case of the stomach flu, she came and layed next to me in the bathroom floor. I'm glad I got to see her and really say goodbye before I left for college, but it doesn't make it hurt any less--it sucks being so far away.

Ugh it's not fair that the most loving and good things in the whole world never seem to live long enough, in comparison to a human life. I mean, turtles and birds--neat animals, don't get me wrong--can't even compare to a cat or dog--and yet they can live for 20-30 years, if not more. The animals that will let you put dumb things on their heads, pet them until you have more fur on your body than they do, snuggle up with whenever you would like, twirl around with, play tag with, tackle, play, and hug--not to mention the unending loyalty. And yet they're limited to such a short time on the earth. I'll never quite understand it, and the sadness seems almost not worth it once you lose them--but I know I will always own cats and dogs for as long as I possibly can.

Denali taught me so much, and I am so grateful for her. She was with me through the hardest times in my life, being the only one in my family who would always know if something was wrong. Having such a great animal in my life has left a huge empty hole--and I'll never forget her.

Monday, September 22, 2008

best dude quiz

Quiz: How well do you know your husband boyfriend best male friend? Answer these questions about him and find out:


1. Sitting in front of the TV, what's on the screen?
Scrubs, Heroes, occasionally the Office. But he is ALWAYS watching Scrubs. Always.

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
I don't think he would ever order a salad. But I'm pretty sure he likes ranch? haha

3. What's one food he doesn't like? Tomatoes. and FRYSAUCE.

4. You go out to a bar. What does he order? ha.

5. Where did he go to high school? Highland High

6. What size shoe does he wear? 11

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be? He collects stickers to put on his guitar case, tickets of all kinds, coins (which are deposited into a large bottle and then taken to coinstar), guitars, various other things.

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich? Heck if I know. I know he likes grilled cheese a lot, as well as cheeseburgers with bacon and barbecue sauce. He's really healthy, you see.

9. What would this person eat everyday if he could? I have no idea. I'll ask him. Technically this is cheating but screw you. But my guess is Bombay House. He's kind of obsessed with it. HA I was right.

10. What is his favorite cereal? Hm. He likes sugary ones since his parents never stock his pantry with them, I think.

11. What would he never wear? I don't know....I've seen him in just about everything. Including a shirt with himself on it. And fishnets.

12. What is his favorite sports team? I guess the Aggies?

13. Who will he vote for? Obama, I'm guessing?

14. Who is his best friend? Me, Tiffany, Tucker, other neat people.

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do? I have nooo idea. Probably be annoying. (:

16. How many states has he lived in? One

17.What is his heritage? Swedish. The Swede.

18. You bake him a cake for his birthday, what kind of cake? He wouldn't let me bake him a cake. His mom has to bake it. And it needs to be the one colorful kind--it's really specific--with lots of sprinkles.

19. Did he play sports in high school? Ran cross country and track, and of course ultimate frisbee.

20. What could he spend hours doing? Various things. Mostly goofing off, probably wishing he could be with his girlfriend, watching Scrubs, playing Wii, playing the guitar?

21. Does he belong to any men's organizations? Hmm I don't know about now at USU but he was in H.A.M. and various other club things at Highland.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

More animation..

All done by myself, no group this time. (:

The objective of these are pretty obvious, but in case you've missed it, the first one was to make a worm crawl across the screen, the second was to make a ball jump, and then the last was to turn a sphere into a cube.


A stunning and epic beaver tail mullet.

Coming at you in front of the Jamba Juice on New Montgomery Street in San Francisco.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

quiz thing

I got tagged by Angela. (:


High School: Highland High.

1. Did you date someone from your high school: Only one of them

2. What kind of car did you drive? : Ha.

3. What is your most embarrassing moment in high school? I don't get embarrassed easily. I even fell over while in my chair in Doug Tate's class one time in the middle of one of his lectures--and besides having a gnarly bruise on my calf, I just laughed. I'm pretty sure Emily Anderson and Anna Tingey were PEEING their pants when it happened.

4. Were you a party animal? Not really! I mean, I went to my fair share, but I never did anything to warrant "party animal".

5. Were you considered a flirt? Yep.

6. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?: Ha, I took art.

7. Were you a nerd? : Oh still am.

8. Were you on any varsity teams? : Lacrosse and golf. Though golf was a bit of a joke. LOVED it though.

9. Did you get suspended/expelled? : nope

10. Can you still sing the fight song? : Pep Club ingrains every cheer, song, and whatever else into your brain permanently.

11. Who were your favorite teachers? : Doug Jorgensen, Rob Gardner, Ruthie Campbell, Terese Cracroft, and Pat Eddington.

12. Where did you sit during lunch?: Never anywhere constant. I'd usually be out for lunch with Mary or whoever else, but when I was there, I'd migrate to and from each area, wherever my friends were. Met a lot of cool people that way.

13. School Mascot? Rams

14. Did you go to homecoming and with who?: Yep. Once with Elliot and once with Tucker.

15. If you could go back and do it again, would you? I loved it, but I wouldn't.

16. What do you remember most about graduation?: haha since it was only back in June...But hmm. Probably how sad it made me to realize it might be the last time I would see many people until our 10 or 20 year reunion or whatever.

17. Where did you go senior skip day?: To the zoo with Danny, Barbra, Marshall, Cameron, and Emilio. Not even kidding. haha, I'm awesome.

18. Were you in any clubs? : Artifex, Arts Academy, BOND, Lacrosse (technically it was a club), Film Enthusiasts, Spanish Club, H2O and Snow, HAW Committee, Pep Club---I loveeeeed clubs. Especially BOND.

19. Have you gained weight since then?: Nope.

20. Who was your prom date?: I've gone with a bunch of different people (I'm counting Morp and other things too), Ben, Peter, Pete, Danny, Chris, Tucker (again)--and I'm pretty sure stupid stuff came up for whatever other dances there were, like I was out of town.

21. Are you planning on going to your 10 year reunion?: of course, I want to see where everyone is in their life.

22. Looking back, what advice would you give yourself?: I don't know. I didn't really screw anything up royally in my life or anything like that, like not making good friends or whatever else, and not getting good grades--but all I perhaps could've learned was how to dress myself well a LITTLE earlier than freshman year? Haha

I tagggg Anna if she sees this and Natalie.

Friday, September 12, 2008


I thought I'd put up a better picture of the people I've been hanging out with all this time I've been here--from left to right it's Claire; who is a fashion major, Chelsea; who is also a fashion major, me Carina; who is a motion picture technology major; and Jenni who is an illustration major. As you can see, we're pretty cute. Claire and Chelsea are the girls I met that one night at that crazy bonfire, and Carina is Chelsea's roommate while Jenni is Claire's.

Last night it was Carina's 19th birthday, so we all hopped onto the bus (muni is my new best friend--I need to get a pass with how much I use it) to Fisherman's Wharf and went to dinner at the Rainforest Cafe. It felt like I was 10 or so--I used to be OBSESSED with that restaurant. It was really fun, though we didn't get to look around the Wharf very much. I'll have to head down there sometime in the day when it's not so cold and look at the seals and eat some crab and whatnot. Of course I want to do all of these fun things but I'm poor and don't have a job yet (I want to kind of settle into my rutine a little bit more) so I'll wait for my family to come and visit me so I don't have to buy this all myself. Yes, family who is planning on visiting me, I am using you and your resources. (:

I'm kidding of course (kind of), and actually cannot WAIT to see all of my family. The semester is already started, and with only 15 weeks of class, it goes by really fast--it seems like I haven't been here long, when in fact I've been here for quite a bit of time. Since I'm not coming home for Thanksgiving, I won't get to see everyone until December (my last final should be on December 19th). However, Carina has already invited me to come spend Thanksgiving with her since she lives about 45 minutes away, so that should be really fun.

Alright, I love you all and I'll update soon--my internet is down at my dorm so I haven't been connected as much as I would like to be. Currently in order to get internet, I have to sit at the end of my hall outside of my room in order to be connected to a neighbor's wi-fi since the bandwidth for The Commodore is used up every day by people and their XBOX live. It's pretty obnoxious. So my butt is numb from sitting on the ground--but eh, whatever it takes.

I'd like to say congratulations to Eden and Robert Cowart on their little girl! I'm so excited for them.

Speaking of babies, I miss Carter and Felix a little too much.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

This is what my homework is for Experimental Animation. It was a group project: using random objects we had to make a slightly coherent film of about 10 seconds.

I love school.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

kind of homesick

Well, I've been here for a bit over a week--and I'm adjusting nicely. I've figured out the names of the streets, gotten to class on time, and have made my dorm my home. I've gotten used to riding Muni, the meal plan, and not having my mom right there to take care of everything for me. I've made some good friends, smelled more pot wafting from every open door way than I have ever smelled in my entire life (even more than at a Jack Johnson concert), gone to a new ward, and have walked more places in these last couple of days than I probably had all summer.

Since being here, I have learned kind of how ridiculous it is to drive everywhere back home, and to depend on everyone else to give me rides to whatever else. I think I've gotten the hang of public transportation, and walking a mile or so REALLY isn't going to kill me.

I asked my mom before I left if she was worried about me--she said, "Not so much right now--but the moment we drive off--that's when I'll be worried. You're not as ready as you think you are," which is absolutely true. I had no idea what to expect when I first came here. I didn't quite realize what living on your own was going to be like--but I was so excited. And of course, I still am excited about the coming months, but I'm really missing my family, more than anything. A kid I met in my Analysis of Form class happened to be a new convert to the LDS church, so we decided to go to church together, along with another girl who I had found on Facebook. He bore his testimony in sacrament meeting, and was invited later by one of the members of the bishopric to their house for dinner. I declined the invitation when Dylan said we could come too, since I knew I would be busy tomorrow and needed to pick up some job applications while it wasn't hectic down in Union Square. But I thought about how you don't really realize how much you miss your family when for so long you take for granted having such a massive family to always be with at almost any moment, especially something as simple as a Sunday dinner. Today is Allison's 22nd birthday, and two days ago it was Ashlie's 24th--so tonight everyone will be over at my mom's house to celebrate. Not that I feel left out or anything of that extent--but I miss that kind of unconditional love you can only get when you are with your family.

Again, I've met some really neat people who I really enjoy being with--but going to the meal plan cafe for Sunday dinner isn't QUITE the same for some reason. I'm going to go to dinner in a few with Claire, Chelsea, and Carina, so I'm off.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Another San Francisco Update

So I've met some cool people, though some REALLY awkward people too--but hey. Some is better than none. But I went to a bonfire down at Ocean Beach on Saturday night and this is how it went:

So starting off, everyone in my dorm who was going walked down to a bus station
in order to get down to Ocean Beach. I was trying to find my friend Lyndsey, but I couldn't (turns out she left her phone at her dorm), so I started talking to these two girls, Claire and Chelsea who both seemed really nice and were both fashion majors. So after waiting about 20 minutes at the bus stop, our RA's decided to take us to another bus stop, since it seemed that one wasn't coming. By that time, some of the guys that all three of us girls knew hopped in a cab and went to the beach, and we thought it was a good idea, so we split the fare and went to the beach to meet those guys.

Upon getting to the beach, we found the guys, however, obviously those who took the bus weren't going to be there for a while, so we wandered in and amongst the bonfires, until we
came across this HUGE one with a bunch of drunk/high forty year olds dancing to techno music with glo sticks and LED lights and twirling fire and all sorts of things. So Chelsea, Claire, and I are all peeing our pants, and we spot this guy who looked like Uncle Rico from Napoleon Dynamite busting a move. And then right next to him there was a guy in a squirrel suit? By that time we figured that was all a little too sketchy for our liking(the picture of the fire was the only one I could get without being TOO much of a creeper), and we hurried out of there. By that time I had discovered that all the guys with us were nice and friendly, however, they all turned out to be major druggies--which I'm not quite into, you see. So we finally managed to find our big group, and it was just awkward. No one was talking to each other outside of their own little cliques which had already been made, and yeah, I don't know, it was super cold and windy and was pretty miserable. So Chelsea, Claire, and I hopped on a muni bus with some people and headed back to the dorms--which was an interesting ride as well since two girls were on it who were falling down drunk and just OBNOXIOUS to the point where I just wanted to punt them. When we got off the bus at our stop, one fell down, and then the other tripped over her. I just rolled my eyes and kept on walking.

So since then, I've been hanging out with Chelsea and Claire a lot, whic
h is fun to have some actual friends here.

The last couple of days I've mostly just been wandering around, getting my bearings of the whole place (I think I have Union Square a
nd Chinatown all worked out, since I live right there, I've been walking down for one thing or another each day), and getting used to trekking up and down all the hills to get to where I need to be. Orientation was today, and I met a guy and a girl both in the animation program, Elaine and Keith who were both super friendly, so I might see them around, though they both live in apartments that are far away, so we'll see. So after orientation I headed down to the Utrecht supply store to get my stuff for my foundations class, and I talked to a kid in the ridiculously long line, and of course when I get to the front of the line, the kit I was trying to buy was sold out. So I paid for it, now I just need to go pick it up. I might do that tomorrow, sometime. I guess tomorrow there's a big tour thing, so I think I'll go on that just so I know where the majority of my classes are being held, since I seriously have no idea where Townsend and Brennan streets are--besides knowing they're really far away and that a shuttle is necessary if I'm going to be there on time.

Ugh I am so excited for class. I'm nervous, but I really am learning all of this stuff from the best people in the industry. It can't get much b
etter than this. It's going to be a TON of work, but I think I'm ready for it. I'm fully prepared to put my heart and soul into everything, because the field I am going into, while in high demand, is INCREDIBLY competitive--say for a job working at Pixar--which seems to be my and everyone else I have talked to's dream. So we'll see. If I don't end up there--so be it. There are countless companies I'd be thrilled to work for, but I have a goal, and it's actually in sight, a real possibility for my future. I'm incredibly lucky to have this opportunity, and I'm not going to let it go to waste. I'm not going to go in expecting to be some hotshot who is better than everyone else--there's no way. Sure, I was one of the best at my high school, but it's going to be a completely different sort of deal here. I'm sure half of the class has never picked up a pencil, and I'm sure the other half will blow me out of the water. I don't quite know where I stand in terms of that--and I don't care. I'm just going to go in there to my first class on Friday and be prepared to do the best that I possibly can, always knowing that I can be better, and that if I really work at it, I will get better.

I can't wait.

Some other pictures from around the City:

Friday, August 29, 2008


How weird is that?! My parents dropped me off this morning after driving fourteen hours to this city. I'm living in the Commodore dorm, which used to be an old hotel, but has been converted into living space. It is PRETTY neat. I have a minifridge which is probably the thing I am most excited about.

As well, my roommate is not here yet, so the anxiety as to who she is has not ended. I DO know however that her name is Yvonne. But that's about it. I've only met a few people today...I'm just really tired and haven't been feeling super good so my normally obnoxious extroverted personality hasn't picked up yet. I did however walk around town for a couple hours with a kid I met on facebook a while back named Paul...he's pretty cool. I'm actually meeting him for dinner in a few, which should be fun.

So I'm all moved in, and this whole thing is CRAZY. I can't believe I am here. It...hasn't quite set in yet? I was freaking out the most when I left Salt Lake and then again when my parents left me...but I've put up some things which remind me of home and my family and friends, so that's good and will keep me from being homesick. As well, thank goodness for Skype and MSN and AIM to keep me in contact with all my friends and family. Annnnd I've been texting all my friends like mad on my new iPhone, which is really neat and that I do recommend getting one if you have the means to.

This is so unreal that I'm actually here.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

of all the things i'll miss family the most

Haha, I put this (well, a slightly different and more quickly done sketch) on the back of Natalie's birthday card.

Why I will miss my family once in San Francisco is ALSO the same reason men will probably run for the hills once they get to know me a little better.


But honestly, one of the things that give me the most anxiety about leaving would have to be about missing my family. I'm going to miss my mom going off on a completely unrelated tangent about Kryon and the forces of the Universe and ancient advanced civilizations during normal conversation, my dad checking to see how sick/hurt I really am and deducing finally, "I've seen worse", laughing for hours with Natalie about "fart sniggle" or playing our favorite guessing games, watching all five of my nephews, especially Felix and Carter getting older, going to church with Heather and Jared whenever I'm tired of going without my entire family, enduring Ashlie's rants about how I shouldn't drink milk anymore ("Pustules! Pustuuuuuleeeeesssssss..."), and wondering what the heck the crap is that Allison has been listening to lately.

I'm also going to miss my animals rather a lot. I'm going to miss snuggling up to Moki at night, tackleing Aurora, and just petting Denali, since she's usually just so stiff now as she's getting older.

Ah, but who am I kidding. I'm going to miss my bed the most.

Monday, August 18, 2008


Another request by my friend Cellie. She's supposed to be doing thriller with a bunch of zombies behind her....but I got lazy and I suppose I'll finish it sometime later.

Elliot left today. I actually got really...really sad. I'm going to be a bit of a wreck when I leave, I'm sure. I didn't even really get to say goodbye to him since his parents wouldn't let him go out last night and I worked this morning. I was just kind of sitting there at the park and it dawned on me and I almost cried. And if you know me well, you know that I either don't cry at all--or I only cry when something really shakes me or something to that extent, and I only feel comfortable crying when I'm with family or by myself. I don't know why, but whatever.

Anyway, last night I went out to dinner with Anna, and then met up with Tucker later to hang out, which was really fun. I haven't hung out with just those two in ages, and I had kind of forgotten what that was like. We took a ton of pictures and were all just laughing so hard, mostly because Tucker looked like a creeper in all of them, except this one where he looks decent--slightly spacey, but decent.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

sorry dudes.

Sorry those of you who read my blog, my entries as of late have been only about me being anxious and excited and slightly scared about school: and here's another one.

Everyone is leaving--I think this will be the hardest for me, this whole part of growing up and moving out. Jordan leaves for Boston in the morning, Elliot leaves on Monday, Tucker on Wednesday, and many others all throughout this whole week.

Makes me really sad just thinking about it. For as long as I have known these people they've ALWAYS been there for me, whether or not we're as close as we used to be. And now physical distance is separating all of us. My core group of friends are ALL going to different schools across the country, save Emilie, Rachel, Michael, and Harrison who are at the U. Never before this have I felt the reality of this? I mean, I've had friends and will have friends who leave on their missions for two years...but that's just one at a time, it seems. Now it's all of them, and all so far away. I know I'll make friends at AAU, but I don't think they'll be the same type of friends. I might be proven wrong, but I won't have an Anna to laugh with for almost an hour over "hurr i'm a durr", or Elliot to go out and buy stupid yet awesome things like his gigantic pogo stick, Tucker to relate something totally random to computers or physics, Mary to tell me about her latest story idea, etc..

I have ridiculously intelligent friends. Friends who were the state CHESS champion, for goodness sake, friends who get into elite schools with scholarships, friends who if you give a problem to them, they'll find a way to fix it in a way which I would've never thought of. It kind of stuns me, in a way. I guess I am equally talented in a different sense in that I can hold a pencil or a paintbrush fairly well, but I really think I am going to miss the friends who aren't as right brained as myself and as suredly as some of my future classmates will be. I can't wait to see who my friends become, hopefully I'll be able to brag about them more than I already do--because I really am so proud of them, and how hard they have all worked to get to where they want to be.

It kind of made me worried when I spoke to my friend Connor who attended AAU for an acting major, but decided to leave because he wanted a more well rounded education and wasn't getting any better of an education in his chosen field than he would get anywhere else. He also told me that a lot of the classes will seem a bit of a joke at first, but the farther you get in and the more kids realize they either want to be there or they do not, it becomes more enjoyable. But while I am so excited for these classes where honestly all I am learning about is art and illustration and animation and perspective and all sorts of things, I really wish I could just buckle down and take a biology class, or take French seriously or something to that end, even a calculus class (I may not be great at math but I am fascinated by it). But honestly, most of my generals have been waived by my AP test scores and in that sense I'm not going to have much of a challenge, there, I guess I could take a couple classes at the U during the summer, one of those six week programs or whatever, take something else that I am interested in, as well.

Well, we'll see. Countdown of 13 days continues.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

bad sleeping habits

Haha, I need to start sleeping better.

But anyway, here are some pictures from the most recent Bear Lake trip. I invited one of my best friends, Rachel, up with me, and it was kind of ridiculous how much fun it was. We rented a boat and a jetski, as well as watched the Olympics, celebrated Heber's 7th birthday, and layed out on the beach. About half of my family was reading Breaking Dawn while up there, and I also got to see some cousins who have been off around the world for the last several months, so that was neat. I seriously didn't want to leave. I could go for a raspberry shake right about now, I think..

Monday, August 11, 2008

oh look.

New layout? got some help from a template that I found somewhere. I like it enough, I guess.


You know, little bulbasaurs everywhere really make this layout much better than it was before.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

new art..

This is what I do in my spare time. Draw really random things in Photoshop. The bottom one is supposed to be my friend Jordan, a request. Yeppp.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

August already?

You Are One Of The Few Outsiders Who Really Understands Us - Fanfarlo

This blows my mind that it's already the beginning of August. This summer has been amazing already, and I'm not quite ready for it to be over. I've been to Newport Beach on my senior trip with some of my best friends--where we sat on the beach and played in the waves all day, went to Disneyland, walked to Albertson's rather a lot to get our vanilla bean frappuccino fix, danced on our wall, and snuggled in close quarters. I went to Bear Lake with my family where we hung out at the beach, layed out, played games, read, and took pictures pretending to be animals. And finally to Big Sky, Montana and Yellowstone National Park to hike to geysers and waterfalls, to fish, swim in the boiling river, play games, escape the termites, and look for wildlife. It kind of amazes me that already my last summer where I officially live at home is almost over. Part of me is incredibly excited to get out there--to be in San Francisco and to be creating art and learning about the stuff I truly care about. But the other part of me doesn't want to leave quite yet. I'm going to miss so much of my family's day to day life. It makes me really sad that since I'll be gone for such long periods of time, my two youngest nephews Carter and Felix probably won't recognize me anymore. I'll be really sad to be away from my best friends as they head all over the country to go to school. Anna's at the University of Oregon, Elliot at Utah State, Mary at Westminster, Rachel, Danny, Clara, and Anna Tingey at the University of Utah, Peter at the University of Chicago, Kevin at Seattle University, Jill at Puget Sound, Lindsay at Boston University, Jordan still at Brandeis, Tucker at Colorado State, Emily at BYU...It's going to be a crazy separation. I'm going to miss everyone so much. However, I am taking into account the fact I'll make plenty new friends--but they'll be a bit different. Hopefully not ALL of AAU's students are moody artists, fashion divas, weird drama nerds, or gay guys (I mean honestly...I want to date some guys..hahah). I guess we'll see. Maybe I could give ol' Scrappy a chance on the dating scene (couple of years ago my sister spotted a nude hobo sitting around on the streets of San Francsico--and dubbed him Scrappy).

Ashlie got back from Ecuador on the first, was in town for 20 hours, and was back on a plane to Mexico with Peter's family for their annual vacation. But while she was here we ate a ton of sushi, swam in the pool, and for dinner went to Costa Vida with everyone. There was this creepy guy in a chef's had with this huge scraggly beard and ugly patterned scrub pants, who was making balloon animals at the restaurant. It was rather strange--he would just kind of stand by our table and watch us or else stand reclusively in the corner. WEIRD.

So in today's news, I went up to Albian Basin with the Bernhisel side of the family to eat some breakfast and spread another part of my grandmother's ashes. She was an amazing skier and loved it up there, as well as always thinking the area beautiful in the summer, which it is. So that was really neat. After returning down to the valley, I had a family reunion with the Carling side of the family down at Liberty Park. It was fun seeing most of the cousins on that side, as well as meeting people I had never seen before.

Oh so this whole past week I've had strep throat...or some other kind of virus, not really sure. I'm on antibiotics so that took care of it for the most part, which is nice. But I still feel kind of gross. This is not relevant to anything.

I don't work for the rest of the week which is really nice, and then on Thursday I'm off to Bear Lake again with most of the Bernhisel family. I'm really excited. I'm also inviting my friend Rachel up--so that should also be super fun.

I need to charge my camera and upload my photos. I'm kind of a lazy person in this sense as I haven't done it in a couple weeks.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Eh, I figure it's time.

I'd better update, since this journal is probably feeling left out compared to my LiveJournal, which is updated a lot, more just out of habit than anything. I've had my LJ for about five years, so I get to look back at all my sweet memories from Junior High and High school. It's pretty neat.

So it's sweltering out here by my pool (I basically live out here--I have been borrowing my neighbor's internet and my backyard has the best connection) and I am considering going for a swim. Or at least laying out and getting more tan, since hey, I might as well soak it up before I'm permanently wearing jeans and sweatshirts while in San Francisco and only see the sun from underneath lots of fog.

OH you know what is ridiculously entertaining? Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog. My brother in law Matt went to school with Neil Patrick Harris who stars in this, which just seems strange? But anyway, it's a musical about a guy trying to become a villain while also winning the heart of a girl he has been seeing at his laundromat. Each or the three 15 minute acts (or episodes) were online for about a week, and was taken down last Sunday and is only available for purchase on iTunes right now. I loved the series so much I bought it, and can't seem to get the songs out of my head.